Do I want to change something in the past?

We were having a cup of tea while enjoying our time, then a friend of mine asked me if I have the chance to turn back time, what will I do? Do I have regret? Do I want to change something in the past? 

My friend’s words kept bugging me until the next day. I don’t even know why I’m being affected by that. I’m sure that every person has thought about it once in her/his life/. As for me, life has been an exciting rollercoaster for the last ten years. There are ups and downs unstoppable like if I could scream the hell out, I would do it over and over. Of course, the thought of giving up, or having a turn back time came through me many times.

I sipped my tea while looking outside, thinking about my friend’s words. It would nice if I could do that, the time machine that brought me back in time; I probably could change things I wanted to change before it happened. But then, life wouldn’t be so exciting because everything would be noticeable. What would life be if everything is known before it happened? 

I glanced into my tea that almost empty, then smiled over it. I used to not liking drinking tea, but the rollercoaster than brought my life ups and downs let anxiety get in touch with me. Remembering those times wasn’t my intention when I started to ponder, yet I couldn’t avoid it. Having tea was one of the moments I long for because it was the time I calm down my nerve and anxiety. I was getting to know more about many kinds of tea, surely enjoy it. As tea became my best friend, I noticed that life had shapen me into the way I am now. 

Do I want to change something in the past? 

It might sound weird, but if someone asked me that when I faced my rollercoaster, I probably say, “Yes,” and throw a bunch of roses for you. But now, I would confidently answer, “No, thank you.”

My life for sure isn’t perfect, but one told me that you don’t have to get it perfect; you just have to get it going. We will learn something new every day of our lives. Life gives us lessons daily. Some people learn, and others never. Just like gain, the loss is also part of life. If you don’t have lost, you don’t grow. The same thing with life decisions that I made along the way, those decisions also shaped me in the person I am today. I choose to turn back time and make everything easier, then I wouldn’t learn and grow. I would be losing my privilege of learning from life. This isn’t tough. This is life.