Honour Your Calling By Doing Your Passion

These weeks I’ve been thinking about what I should do and what I shouldn’t do. What I regretted all my life that I have never been able to do it. Wonder if it is my passion or not. Whether it is my calling or not. It is not sure because I wasn’t able to do it. I intended to release them all and for some reasons when I get to the point where I believe in. I should do, but I didn’t, It makes me feel somehow so bad for me to not sense the opportunity.

At the end of my twenty when I made the biggest decision in my life which was the most difficult one. It wasn’t about either my parents or family. Mostly, it was because “Is this what I believe God wanted me to do?” If I could recall that time, it was not about deciding whether or not I do it, but mostly about “Was I ready to do it?”

I was surrounded by people who faithfully supported me a lot. They encouraged me by always saying that I could do it, I was born to do it. At the end, I went and did it. The decision which led me to another journey of my life, yet made me wonder where I have been these times. I thought I knew everything but I wasn’t. I thought I did many things, but I didn’t. It was just at the beginning of all big things ahead. A couple of years ago it was me starting doing things that I thought I could do or exactly, I couldn’t. I wondered where I was these whole years, I should have done those things at my early age of twenty because I felt I was far behind everyone and lack of time to finish everything.

Unfortunately, that wasn’t the last point of my life, when I thought I reached what I called my turning point. Once again it turned different. I thought I was going to establish my life there, do what God wanted me to do and die for it. I don’t want to say it was wrong, but mostly as it has been just the beginning, it was like the stepping stone to something bigger that God has prepared for me.

During my time there, I learned many things. I have learned that while those who spoke about one’s miseries usually hurt more. The most of all is I felt my world was getting bigger. I even could see many things I couldn’t see before. Things which I thought impossible to do. That was when I understood “mistakes turned to opportunity”. The mistake that led me to my turning point. The turning point that made me view my purpose in life from a different side that makes me go over my boundaries in life and reach what was left.

I started this year with many buckets-list, which led me to wonder “should I do it or shouldn’t I?” And all of that thought brought me to old times. God has led me to see many things which I still believe. There will be more of it coming ahead, but the most important is how I respond to it. The life I lived before, the life I live now and the life I will live in the future, I’m going to leave it undoubtedly. I’m going to live to the fullest by honor every single thing in my life as a calling from God to do the best that I could.

THE MUSINGS

It isn’t “should I do it or I shouldn’t do it”. If it is your calling, then do it. There are a lot of things that happen in life. Sometimes it gets too hard to handle, but you push through it somehow. Or sometimes you find yourself in the middle of nowhere. Sometimes in the middle of nowhere you find yourself because the calling for our life isn’t just to find ourselves but to live our calling. The calling to live not just for ourselves but for other people too. From the moment you help other people, the moment you start talking to other people, that’s the moment you will see your world is getting bigger than you know that you are not alone.